letting oneself go (verb) relax: be or feel at ease
Sinonime: blurred,
chaotic, cluttered, disarranged, disordered, disorderly,
disorganized, in disarray,
messy,
misunderstood, out of order, scrambled, tangled,
unsettled, unsorted, untidy
Antonime: agitate,
excite,
tense,
worry